Life is so damn ironic sometimes, it's cruel. The last few days, the tables have been completely turned on me. A lot of times, Kelsey will tell me how she feels that Wendy and I often "buddy up", and kind of just be "the two of us", rather than "the three of us", when we're all together. And I didn't really notice that, until lately. The other day, well, this past weekend, I met them at Caribou one night--this past Friday. Kelsey had gotten back from driving, and I was coming home from Bryce's. It was really ackward, because they kept joking around about stuff that had happened earlier that evening, and stuff. And I just kind of laughed, and joked around, even though I had no idea what they were talking about. And for the first time in a long time, I felt completely left out, and totally alone. I don't know, maybe that's because I deserved it, I don't know...I mean, I called Kels and she said she was with Wendy, and so I just kind of invited myself to come see them, but I only stayed for like, 25 minutes or something, I don't know, but yeah. And then yesterday, during lunch, we were in Red's room, hanging out, talking, like we always do. And suddenly, they started talking about stuff, like, Wendy's work, her sister, stuff that happened when I wasn't there. Now, I don't want this to seem like I want people to ONLY talk about me and stuff that happened with me when I'm around, I don't care. But I guess I felt like I was just out of it; like they had gone to a party and were talking about the cute boys and I wasn't there to get in on some of the window shopping. I don't know...And like, today, we went to Kelsey's house during 4th hour, because we had 1st lunch (we had a choral group come during band), and like, they were all chatty and just talking about different people in Jarod's (Kelsey's bro) old year books, and I just kind of sat there, looking dumb. I don't know.

There's a good chance I'm making this out to be bigger than it is. I don't know, Kelsey has just seemed really off lately, like, she'll be super happy with Wendy, but just kind of ignore me and act unhappy and such. I don't know? Maybe it's just me. I guess I'm just so used to being part of a "group", which, I know, sounds extremely self centered, but like, I don't know. I'm going to go do homework, I told Courtney I'd go to her "candle party" tonight, *groans* and I'm bringing Bryce. Heh. Her mom is making cocktail weenies!!! Wheee!!!! Haha. Our presentation went well, I was pretty nervous, and Brie didn't know half the numbers in French. Oh well. I gotta run!

hmm...
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Ahhh!!! This is driving me insane. So, I start to lay out my pictures on my poster board for French, and my mom comes and sits down, and just starts diddeling with it! Like, rearranging things, and saying, "Oh, how about this? Yeah, like, right here....", and all this! god! That is so annoying! And than she's like, "Oh, well, I think you finally got it all to fit!" and I'm like, "I didn't do anything!". I didn't SAY that, but I was thinking it! Heh. But yeah. I don't know, I'm just frustrated. But, the good news is, it's almost done. I just have to paste it on there, and then tomorrow we present, and than, we're done. 'Cept Brie hasn't done anything, she said today she hasn't even researched her people's biographies!! That was the ONE job we needed her to do. What the hell!? Blah. *breathes deeply* I shouldn't be yelling.

Anyway...I'm going to go work on my project more, I have to find more pictures for time periods before the Impressionism era.

Well, I'm going to attempt to write a quick blog about Texas. It was SO fun!!! It rained on Sunday, so Kel-C and I just drove around, and hung out inside. We went to a few little shops, and just went bargain hunting. Heh. And than, Monday, it was so nice and sunny (high 70's), we sat outside, tanned, and jumped in the pool (and jumped back out, it was SO cold!). And then we went shopping some more, came back, washed her car, and then tanned some more. Heh. It was pretty much the same on Tuesday, cept we didn't wash the car, and we played bingo that night. We didn't win anything, but we were close! Every day Kels and I played Yahtzee! It was so fun. Her dad and step mom are really nice, even though her dad has been an ass in the past, but, yeah...Anyway. So, I left Wed. afternoon, and Kels started driving back on Thursday morning. I talked to her a little bit ago, and she was about 2 hours away from home, so, that's good! Yay! Heh.

My mom and I got in a squabble this morning; I didn't clean my room like I was suppose to yesterday (how mature is that?) and so she yelled at me and said how even though I do nice things for her (I bought her flowers and coffee), all she wants is for my room to be clean. So, she was yelling, I was crying, and yeah. It was bad. But, I guess we're "ok" now...I don't know.

Elen, me, and my mom are going downtown later, we're meeting friends for lunch and than going to the flower show. Yay. Welllll, I should go! Adios.

I'll write more later, hopefully?!

Well, it's about five minutes to 1, and Bryce is coming over in about fifteen minutes. We're going to dye easter eggs! Wheee!!! heheh. My mom and I went to the Marsh today, it's this place in Hopkins. It's like a fitness center. We worked out for like, a half an hour. It felt good, considering I'm not very active. But yeah. I did the stationary bike, the Stair master, and the Elpytical machine. I liked the bike the best.

Bryce and I had a long talk yesterday, a lot of stuff that I had been holding back came out...And I'm not sure if it's good or not. I mean, after what I told him, most boyfriends would've broken up with their girlfriend. I mean, it's hard, because I'm not going to write what I told him, because that would be bad, but, yeah...I don't know. Don't assume the worst.

Anywhoo. So, Bryce is coming over to dye easter eggs. I got some tye-dye stuff, too. As well as the regular stuff, so that's good. It's suppose to f-in' snow on Sunday! What the crap?!?! Just when it was sort of getting nice.

It's weird, I'm actually -excited- to do math homework this weekend. How freaky is that? It's nice because I understand what we're doing, and we have a test on Wednesday, I think, so, I like to get a headstart on things I know how to do!

I should get goin, but I'll write more later.

oh fuck.
i typed an extremely long entry.
and now its all gone.
arrrrgh.
-pullshairout.
i cant stand blogger.
i cant stand so many other things people too.
yes. bitching time.
am feeling in the mood right now.

firstly.
the stalker.
[gawd. you are so.. tsk. you like her cos of someone's
influence okay. and i cant believe you actually stalk her?!
thats so perverted. i dont even stalk my numbers. i think
thats too much. i dont go out of my way just to see them.
you do. cant believe you stalked her. and you stalk her
all the time. urgh. you disgust me.]

second.
the ripoff.
[urgh. you're such a ripoff. look at your nick. you're
copying my style. thats so sick. dont you have any
originality? urgh. and its not only that. you like her cos
everyone else has a crush and you feel odd cos you dont have
one. and being desperate you chose a pig as a crush. -rollseyes.
you think its so cool to have crushes isit? well then you dont
really love yours. you just like her cos everyone else has a
crush. like i said before. and thats so lame. you make me sick.
and you are so acbc. you think you're so pretty and cool huh?
well im telling you now. you're not.]

third.
the bitch.
[i do NOT suck up to her. if i do then what are you? you're
the ultimate bootlicker. trying to act cool huh? you are so NOT
cool. you think the seniors like you so much isit. well they dont.
and i do not have the time to write to her to gossip about you.
i have muchmuch more important things to ask. she also doesnt have
the time to write back to gossip more about you. she and i arent so
free. and what business is it of yours what i write to her about?
how do you even know i write to her? and how do you know she daos
you after i wrote to her. maybe she daoed you even before that. you
just didnt realize it. and why should she not dao you. hello? she's
a senior. she doesnt have to smile and wave at you all the time. and
you say im dao. well have you ever wondered why im dao to you and not
to others? ha. bet you havent. maybe its cos you are really annoying.
no wait. its not maybe. it is. cant believe i actually used to like
you. i mean as a fren. yuckk. i was blind then. but dont worry. now
i can see. very clearly. fuck you BITCH.]

ahhh. yes thats better. bitched enough already.
oh and i just love my ultra shuai daddy :)
as in chuyin k. not my father. haha.
she gets shuaier each time i see her. ahaha.
well. gotta go. bye.

hey.
having cs.
im still not allowed to go online.
till after exams.
and anyway my comp is virus-ed.
styoopid.
ha.
and some people actually think i like
siying.
just coz in my chinese book which i left
in the canteen last thursday, i wrote
"sy" all over inside.
those are my initials.
yessssssssss they are.
some people wrote "i love siying" all over my book.
uh.
retarded?
yep. guess thats it.
hah.
i only love one. and that one.
yeah so get that clear.
oh and i got a no.4 :)
but no.2, 3 and 4 i dont really like.
i just like to look at them coz they're cute :)
yep. but i only love one.
yeah i know thats repeated.
heh.
went to town on sunday with mer and rachel.
bought lotsa presents :)
so many people's birthdays are in may.
haha.
spent dunno how much money.
heh. dont really care.
ha. anyway i gotta go.
i love skittles [especially the red ones] :)
haha.